Normal in a way that she’s not surprised to hear about existential crisis. What do you believe in now? I talked about my broad spiritual beliefs. Asked if I knew why they asked me that question. I said no.

“I don’t think I have a belief system.”

"Yes you do. You just told me, 'I don’t believe whatever the fuck [REDACTED] believe in. Period. You said you believe in an infiniteoneness.That is a belief systems. I want you to see that. Because you have the answers for yourself that you already answered. It's your claim.

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Brain wants, answers, logic definitive pathway and plan. Maybe world says it can’t work like that. But we’re in this world now, not that world. Why not use that to your advantage? Let need for a definitive pathway lead you. Walk the path and sees where it gets you. You’re saying you need proof in the form of steps. You see life a different way. Some people are scared when someone says there’s ghosts. But you try to figure it out. [REDACTED] Sees where it leads you. It’s an act of trust. You are allowing what’s pulling you, that feeling inside of you to lead you. You’re trusting that and self.

Goal is to want. Let new voice desire things.

There's something within you that you don't touch. I can feel it and see it but I want to pull it out of you. Go forth and run with it. Struggle with it. Let the path lead you right back to me. Trust it. Don’t feel like you have to do or be anything. It’s already there. All it wants to do is have a space.

23 DEC 2025

Father's dad brings my brother forward. He's proud of him and does well at work. He thought he had more time and did not realize he'd die suddenly. He's at peace.

March opens up a new energy for me, by July land something new (-->NOTE: got promoted March and again in April).

City environment would be difficult for you.

Smaller side, petite. Dark hair. Hangs out on my left side. Traditional. Strength in what she wants people to say. Will give you chills when she's around. Not have closure. Not being able t ospend time with her before she passed. Very strong energy.

You will meet someone older with light hair. Petite. Suit jacket on. Works in HR?